Thursday, June 25, 2009

how about changing things that was destined to you?!

How will you make it?! when you still don't know what to change.
They say, all have the ability to change his own destiny. "Yes he can!" they declare. but how would you know if its your destiny?! 
Destiny defined as; something that is to happen or has happened to a particular person or thing; lot or fortune. But for me, you'll only know right after the scene, right?! and how would you change that if that's the case. It'll just happen on the future, and once you knew it, that's the only time you'll get to realize to change, and not before it happen. See?! I really don't believe that.
As an individual, whose taking the role to be part of the society and living in this planet called earth I always have a lot of questions in mind. There are alot of things that is need to be answered. And at our time, when you asked, you'll get two different answers; scientifically and practical answers. I, personally, I am amaze of things explained by science, yet, get to be more amazed by the mysterious characteristics of how people explained it simply and deeply.
Who is GOd?! where is God living?! what was the real name of our very own jesus?! Is there really heaven and hell?! Did jesus really had an affair with mary magdalene?! so, if that is what happened, do they had bore a child?! Does our churches really just invented HIM to have someone who'll be responsible for explaining and to convinced us that we will never get the answer til' we'll get there (heaven)?! and what if we don't able to get there and instead we'll go to hell, does fire there will really burn us forever?! For me, that doesn't really make any sense. Because as we all knew, he was good and loved us. He undyingly loved us so, why he'll allow us to suffer with that kind of life after death?! 
We all have questions in regards with our religion. We don't have proofs. We don't get any answers but still we believed not only with him but with his noble servants. Yes, we still believed. Just because we have to. We don't have choices coz' we never get answers. We never get any other ideas to go on the other way. In any religion, there's only two ways to choice. It's either you'll go to hell or be in heaven.
We can ask questions. But we can't expect to be answered.

Monday, June 22, 2009

Last saturday, dated June 20, 2009 my new niece from my cousin ate engie had her baptism together with the celebration of his tito angel (brother of ate engie). That afternoon went well. After the big lunch, which I am not able to eat with them since I was still in school Last time, the main event has finally came- the "inuman" portion. That's the only segment i been able to witness.

Well, still everything goes well that afternoon until I went home and sewed my jogging pants. But, I was being bothered by the sudden stop of the videoke machine my cousin rented. I only here people talking and shouting, and that only mean one thing, there's a fight going on. So I went outside to find out. And my theory was right.

I went on the scene and do whatever I can to let them stop. I really don't know the whole story, but I was able to convince my self that there's only one person who ruined the celebration. They locked them up to avoid being hurt by his cousins and brothers. Yeah! he is also my cousin and he did that out of drunkness.

See how much influence a liqour can do?!

What i just don't understand is that, me, when I was in the state of drunkness I was very much different from them! I still get to remember what i just did and what was just happen and I never do anything that will start a fight or a war. So for me, liqours never gets to influenced me in any sense.

Sunday, June 21, 2009

Forgetting and forgiving:)

He said that "you don't totally forgive a person on the sin he/she made when you don't forget yet the sin" but how about Forgetting the sin without further notice of forgiving?! How would you classify that?!

I've experience being accused of a crime I never committed with. She accused me of flirting with her boyfriend and texting her with bad words which I never did and planned to do. I was surprised when she texted me one night and accused me of everything. He even say that I'm a "shit" and a Liar. She never explained why until I found out the real reason. Her friends even got angry with me, But I understood them coz' they were just protecting their friend and they were proving they were a friend. But they should also understand that even they were a friend of that person or anyone, they still should be fair with others like me. Isn't it unfair to be judge quickly without proofs?!

I was still baring that scene here in my memory. But, I was treating them the same way now as I did before when I still consider them as my friends and classmates, and that's for real. No pretensions and for real, really!

And now, what i'm asking is that "how would you distinguish that from the scenario forgettiing and forgiving?!"